28 May 2014

"And when he had said these words, he wept, and the multitude bare record of it, and he took their little children, one by one, and blessed them, and prayed unto the Father for them."

It is amazing to me how God knows His children--each and every one. He knows us personally, and is so mindful of us. If we keep our eyes open we will see the miracles that he performs to show how much He knows us individually.

Miracle #1: I was on a  phone call with my dad, just catching up on our day, when he told me a story. A story of something that had just happened the day before. Now that my parents live only a few miles away from my sister, they are able to spend a lot of precious time with their grandchildren. After being outside playing, Carly decided she was done for the day. She headed back inside. My dad soon followed after her, but before he opened the door he saw something that caught him off guard. It was a snake! But all that was seen was the back half of the snake, caught between the door that Carly had just gone through and shut. This meant there had been a snake right behind Carly when she headed inside, but miraculously shut the door, not only hard enough, but fast enough that she closed the door right on the snake, killing it; keeping Carly safe from any harm.

The Lord is mindful of us. He is watching over us. We will never know what could have happened if Carly did not close the door at the precise time that she did, but I know that it was a miracle.  I know that Heavenly Father knows Carly, and loves her just as He loves me. The blessings of God are there for each of us, all we need to do is accept them and we will see how much of our individual lives He really is.

"Come unto me, all ye that are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."

I heard a speaker this week that talked of this man who continued to go through trial after trial. He asked if God was angry with him or what he did to deserve these trials; losing everything. Another man then asked him, "How is your testimony?" The grieved man answered, "Stronger than ever."

How is it that we become stronger during times of affliction? Sometimes we actually expect hard times to just change us. I've noticed that we either give up and blame God for those times, or just simply "get through it"  thnking that if we get through one we can get through another. But we don't have to just "get through it." The reason that man's testimony became stronger was because he understood that He could not get through or truly overcome any of them without the help of the Savior. During this time of hardship, he had to rely on the Savior more than ever in his life. His testimony of Jesus Christ, who is the foundation we must stand on (Helaman 5:12), became strengthened as He allowed the Lord to stand by him to hold him up. 

Miracle #1: We NEVER have to be alone. This was a concept that I am still learning every day. At times I think, He is so far away, how can He help me and strengthen me? How is it he can lighten my burdens and make them light? They say that prayers are answered through other people; a concept never understood until now. After a wonderful session at the Provo Temple we were invited to my Bishops house for desserts. After being there for around 20 minutes, a group came walking in. In that group was a wonderful girl who has truly blessed my life forever. A miracle. After Bishop so kindly found a chair for me to sit on, I found myself speaking with this girl. Noticing her scrubs, I mentioned how being a nurse is a dream of mine, and that I always knew that it was a path I would one day cross. She then excitedly told me about The U's accelerated program! If you already have your Bachelor's degree, you can complete the nursing program within one school year. I cannot even describe the power of the spirit that hit me right at that moment. I could not stop thanking her for telling me about the program. Little did I know that Heavenly Father had an even greater purpose for putting her in my life.

What a miracle it was that we met, as she soon became a friend that I could rely on, find comfort in, and be strengthened by. The following Sunday she and I went on a walk for almost 3 hours. As I explained the pains and troubles I had been going through she would stop and tell me how she was going through the EXACT same things. We were able to compare hardships, and although they were different in scenario, the emotions and the solutions attached were the exact same. The heart aches we went through were the same. The pain I felt she was feeling. I truly felt that she was my Savior.  I had been praying for a friend that I would be able to talk to, that would understand me and would be able to give me strength through the power of the Lord. As I have learned more of the Saviors life I know we do not have to walk alone. He is there for us. He will lead us and guide us and give us rest. The Savior loves us so much, and works in mysterious and miraculous ways.

I know that if we let ourselves draw near to Christ, he will lighten our burdens. Sometimes it feels like those burdens might be too heavy to lift, but the Atonement- the greatest miracle of them all- can take it away. We simply need to "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding" Proverbs 3:5. 

27 February 2014

Ye Receive No Witness until After the Trial of your Faith

Me being the person that I am, often think about things WAY too much. Sometimes it can be a good thing, though. In this case, I'd say that it is good. Sometimes I'll sit and ponder looking back on my life and ask myself, "Have I actually learned from my mistakes? Have I actually become stronger because of my trials? If I went through those same trials now, would I handle them differently because of the person I am becoming (or hoping that I am becoming)." Not sure if that made any sense, but I just wonder a lot, because, we tend to make the same mistakes over and over again, so when do we finally learn? Why don't we learn, repent, and then never do it again? The more I thought about this, the more I realized how key the Atonment of Jesus Christ is in all of this. Not only the Atonement, but faith in the Atonement, knowing that if we have the desire to change, then we can. For the first time ever, I finally got a glimpse of how I can do that.

This is my first semester back at BYU from being on my mission. Two transfers before I came home I made sure to get everything sorted out for school so that on my last transfer I could really focus on finishing strong. I was in contact with my Liaisons, who then transferred me to working with my advisor in setting up my classes. I had asked him if he could set up a grad plan for me, and let me know which courses I needed to take this next semester in order to start my practicum in the fall. He sent me the list of classes, I looked them over, not recognizing the names of any of them, trust that these were right!

When you get home from a mission you expect your life to just work out so perfectly, as you hear the saying, "God takes care of His missionaries." Well, when I get into my 3-hour once a week class on THURSDAY-meaning I had already been through almost a whole week of classes-I begin recognizing all the things my teacher is teaching the class. I just think to myself, "It can't be! That course had a different name to it!" I then frantically search my computer for any and every evidence of me taking this course. My first step was looking up my transscript, but there was documentation that I had even taken this class to be found. I search through my onenotebook on my laptop and am able to find a couple of notes from the class. I then find assignments, papers, various pieces of proof.! BUT IT WAS NOT ON MY TRANSCRIPT!! Would I have to retake this class again?

Our class begins preparing for a quick activity we are going to do with the class, an activity I knew very well from having taken this class already. I notion my teacher over, and explain to her that I know I took this class with Dr. Cutri. "Oh, yes, she teaches this, too! Well, they did change a couple of the names of the courses in the past 2 years, so this could be why." AHhh, why did my advisors not catch this? Would I have to retake this class, and then realizing another that needed to be added on the list of courses I had already taken. Would I have been able to be in my practicum now if they had figured this out? Even if they find that I took these two classes, and I drop them, where am I supposed to find 6 credits worth of classes to fill in this hole! I had to have at least 14 to keep scholarship, and I would only have 9!

After going to advisement, they informed me that I would not be able to come in for another hour, so I drove over to my sister Karen's to drop something off. Driving to her house I could not contain my tears. I felt so stuck, like there was no out, and all I wanted to do was complain about it, and blame my advisors, but I knew that would not fix anything. That's when it hit me. I am growing. I am learning. I remembered that even though I had no idea how I was going to get out of this mess, Heavenly Father would. He knows ALL things. Trying to fight past my tears, I began to sing a children's hymn:

Heavenly Father, are you really there?
And do you hear and answer every child's prayer?
Some say that Heaven is far away
But I feel it close around me as I pray
Heavenly Father, I remember now,
something that Jesus told disciples long ago: 
Suffer the children, to come to me.
Father in Heaven I come to thee.

Pray, He is there.
Speak, He is listening.
You are His child.
His love now surrounds you.
He hears your prayers,
He loves the children,
of such is the kindgom; 
The kingdom of Heav'n.

That was my prayer. And I knew that Heavenly Father had heard it. I felt it. And He answered in ways that I could not have possibly imagined. This is where the many might miracles come in.

I return to the advisement office later that day when they inform me that they were able to find record of me taking those two courses, and that the names had been changed. That being said, they explained that I still needed to take Statistics class, and one more Religion credit to finish my generals; courses I was planning on taking in the summer. Not knowing if there would even be available spots to these courses, or get a decent professor, or if I would be able to catch up on the whole week's worth of classes I had already missed.

Miracle #1
When I get to my math class, I am trying to add in a religion course: Teachings of the Living Prophets. I felt terrible because I probably seemed so rude being on my laptop during class, but the urgency could not escape me. The only decent teacher available for this course was Prof. Newell. His ratings were not very great, but better than the other two availble professors. I click the 'add' button and it simply is not letting me add. It keeps showing me those annoying "proof that you're not a robot" things. And it kept saying that I was incorrect! How rude! I did it over and over and over again! Now having the help of classmates, and my teacher definitely does not like me at this point. It couldn't have been a worse day to sit in the front. Eventually I took my laptop and left the classroom. Trying to add it over and over again, I notice something different. I see the number 1, in a space that had the symbol " - " meaning, no spot available. Now there was a one there! I look over at who the professor is, I go to ratemyproffessor.com and He has the best ratings of any teacher for this course!! Everyone loves him! Wow. If I had gotten right into the class with Newell I would have shut my laptop and sealed the deal. But, Heavenly Father knew better.

Miracle #1a
I especially knew that he knew better when I got home from classes that day and I was explaining the whole situation to my sister Katie, on the phone. I told her how I was now taking the teachings of the living Prophets with Brother Freeman, and was really excited. When I hung up the phone, my roommate Virgdant says, "Hey, so I over heard that you're taking Brother Freeman for Teachings of the Living Prophets! That's actually who I took it with last semester! I have all of the books if you would like them!" I could not believe what I was hearing!!! I thank her over and over again, explaining that I had to add a statistics class as well to my schedule when I hear, "Oh, well, I took that last semester as well if you wanted my book." Heavenly Father watches out for His children, we must prove or be tried of our faith in Him.

Just in my Marriage and Family class that week, our teacher had talked about how if we keep asking Heavenly Father why me, we will be disctracted by all the good that is in store for us. I know this is true. If I had gone around complaining, showing no faith, I would not have recieved a witness of His love in  a way that I did that day.

Miracle#1b
Being that I added these classes on Thursday, I knew I would be two days already behind in my Statistics class. For someone who has to put in more effort in school than the average Joe, I knew I would need help. I went on to Learning Suite (a site that BYU uses to help keep your courses and assignments organized. Also a way that teachers and students are all able to communicate with eachother) and saw that I could message students in my courses. I sent out a mass message explaing my situation, and if anyone would be willing to meet up with me. A couple of people responded, including one in particular. Greg Low. Of course I checked him out on Facebook to see if he looked like someone I could trust to me with, and felt comfortable. I responded back and we met up. Well we continued to meet almost every other day to study and work on our quizes together. He helped me so much understand concepts, and was so patient when I was having a hard time understanding the concepts. Well, I guess it just goes to show that the best relationships are formed by two really good friends. On Feb 10, we decided that dating was something that was worth trying. What a blessing and miracle this has been in itself.

So many miracles stemmed from a trial that I thought would be the complete opposite of a miracle. I know that when those trials come, if we just give up, unwilling to act on faith, knowing that as long as we are doing all that we can, continually acting, staying positive, and relying on the Lord, we will received a witness of God's love and his many might miracles.

21 November 2013

A Light in the Darkness

In April of 2013 at the Semi-Anual General Conference, President Dieter F. Uchtdorf  of the First Presidency stated, "To all who feel they walk in darkness, I invite you to rely on this certain promise spoken by the Savior of Mankind: 'I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.'"

As a member of this wonderful Gospel of Jesus Christ, not only have I witnessed this light in my own life, but I am beginning to see how the light of Christ within me is becoming a light in the darkness that others may fall upon. Not only this, but I witnessed tonight, a miracle so beautiful; I saw the love that God has for his children!

Just the other day while browsing through my Facebook Newsfeed, I came upon a status from a childhood friend that really troubled me. They questioned whether anyone would really care if they were gone. This broke my heart not only because I have felt that pain of feeling unwanted or unloved, but also because no one should have to feel that they are not cared for. I brushed it by, scrolling past with a heart of saddness. Little did I know how the Lord was going to use me to be that light in his time of darkness.

Miracle #1 What a grand miracle it was when I logged into Facebook not even two days later when I see I have received a FB message. It was from him!! He has said hello, and asked if I had remembered who he was, with my response of, "Of course I do!" After messaging back and forth for a few minutes, catching up on old times, I asked how he was doing...and that I had seen his facebook status the other day. He mentioned that life was pretty bumpy right now. It was at this moment that a phrase in my Patriarchal blessing came into my mind. I KNEW that gifts that I had been given were for specific moments such as this. So I wanted him to know so badly that NO matter WHAT, his Father in Heaven would ALWAYS love him and care for him, but I had no idea how I would do it. I With a prayer in my heart, the words came clear that I could share with him how I met people from my mission in Hawaii just like him, and how by learning and taking hold of the Gospel of Jesus Christ I saw their lives transform!! I invited him, that if he was interested in learning how he can feel true peace and joy in his life, that I would love to share it with him.

Agreeing upon this, I then had the thought to tell him about "The Book of Mormon!" I could not believe it. I did not want to freak him out by any means, but I've learned WAY too many times to not argue with the Holy Ghost. I told him how this wonderful book will help him find his way towards true and everlasting JOY, with his response, "I just might have to take you up on that!" Within the next couple of minutes he excitedly tells me that he had downloaded the BOM to his phone!! I shared with him my testimony of Jesus Christ, and told him that if he EVER EVERRR felt like no one cared, that he MUST know that I, ANNIE MOYES, will always care, and more importantly, that Heavenly Father cares and loves him.

I cannot express what a miracle this was. I am so grateful that Heavenly Father has placed people into my life that I may touch and teach them!! What an exciting time to be alive! I invited him to read Alma chatper 36 Alma the younger and his trials, and how he never let his gaurd down! I cannot wait for him to read it!!! I love sharing this gospel so much! It is true, and changes lives for not only this time, but for all eternity!!

04 November 2013

In Every Needful Thing

This past weekend has been one of many miracles! My Sister Kate and her husband, Ryan, had to, at last minute, fly to Utah for their Grandfather's funeral, leaving me to watch their two precious children, Carly and Connor. As Kate and Ryan were in my prayers during this difficult time, I could not help but feel blessed and honored to be able to spend this time with my niece and nephew.
For those not familiar with my family, Connor is three years old, soon to be four in March. At the age of two he was diagnosed with Autism. Autism has affected him in many ways, including his speech, his motor skills, and ability to adjust to change. He is very set in his routine, and if something changes, it can be a very big upset. He is also very particular in what he eats and what he watches on the t.v. That being said, he is also the most precious, sweet, friendly, loving boy you will EVER meet in your life. He will give anyone a hug, or blow them a kiss,  and has to say 'hi' to everyone we meets.  I know that Heavenly Father has a special place for him in His heart. I could feel this so strongly when taking care of Carly and Connor this weekend. There were so many mighty miracles that were performed. Although they seem small, they had very large

Miracle #1 Every day, the same routine. Wake up myself, wake up Carly, get her dressed and ready, prepare her cereal. Go back upstairs, wake up Connor, let him turn his light on, shut his door, and he finishes off with turning off his humidifier and noise maker. I then pick him up change his diaper put him in his clothes, then bring him down stairs for breakfast. Carly is already off to school, so Connor and I have time to play until his bus comes at 11:30. When both he and Carly come home from school at 3, he knows that immediately it is time for his nap. Around 6pm I go to wake him up, same routine. But this time, I need to be sure to have a movie playing on the t.v. for when he comes down. Browsing through the movies in knowing what to play, I went to put on Cars, when the sudden thought came to me to put on Toys Story 3; a thought so quiet, had I not learned from life's experiences what this was, I would have easily dismissed the thought, thinking I knew better. This could not be the case. Our Father in Heaven is mindful of every needful thing. I turn on Toy Story 3. I go upstairs to wake Connor, whom, while changing his diaper keeps requesting, in these words, "Bzz Liyer, Bzz Liyer!" Translation: "Buzz Lightyear, Buzz Lightyear!" I know, had I not put Toys Story 3, he would have come down those stairs seeing the movie Cars on and put on a fit that could have delayed dinner for at least a half an hour, which on a night where baths were in order could have set many other routines OUT of order. A blessing, a tender mercy, my miracle.

Miracle #2  We then come to when I wasfeeding Connor and Carly lunch on Saturday. I was cutting an apple into slices for Carly, when I again felt inspired to leave some slices because although Connor begged for blueberries, was not going to eat them. After finishing his sandwhich, I encouraged Connor to eat his blueberries. He defiantly said his usual, "NO!"...there is no point in arguing with that, it will just continue on to an Emporere's New Groove  moment (nuh uh, ya huh, nuh uh, ya huh, etc.). So I, knowing I had left apple for him to eat, asked, "Connor do you want some apple?" With a sweet tone and smile on his face he said, "Affle!" I said yet another prayer to Heavenly Father for blessing me at this time. It was these small little moments that testified to me each day of His love for His children.

In the scriptures we are told to cry over every needful thing. I know that if we always have a prayer in our heart, we will see many mighty miracles. God is our Father, and we are children of God. He loves us more than anything in the world, and wants to help us, even in every needful thing.

24 October 2013

What is a Miracle?

"It is important to notice the different names by which miracles are described. They are called signs, as being visible tokens of an invisible power; they are powers or mighty works, because they are the acts of One who is almighty; they are simply works, or the natural results of the Messiah's presence among men; they are wonders, marvels, because of the effect produced on those who saw them."
http://www.lds.org/scriptures/bd/miracles

I love this definition from the Bible Dictionary. So many times we think that witnessing a miracle means to witness a huge extraordinary occurence or event that cannot be explained by science. But just as this says, they can be "signs, as being visible tokens of an invisble power." Every day we witness these miracles! We sometimes think we accomplish much because of our own skill....but I, too, will not boast in my own strength because I cannot. I cannot because I know that everything I do, everything that occurs that is good is a witness of His hand, His works, His miracles.

 I hope that all those who read this will be able to see these miracles, or witnesses of God, the eternal father, and of our Savior Jesus Christ. He performed the mightiest miracle of them all by breaking the bonds of death. Every day we are blessed through this miracle alone. But that being said, we must pray for our eyes to opened, we must pray to be worthy, and we must pray to know what we need to do to be a witness of His many mighty miracles.